Introduction
No way around it: I once was carrying so much physical chronic pain that I got near to jumping off a train platform, but I didn’t because of Tom Petty’s “Straight Into Darkness.” This little book examines why.
The number of good books about Petty can be counted on one hand. Most of them are properly researched journalistic enterprises that shy away from too many critical maneuvers, like examining the nitty-gritty of his word choices or arguing about whether his work is kind to women. None of them much illuminates the nature of a personal connection between author and subject, and none of them explicitly dips a toe into any philosophy. I hope the form and content of what I’m doing here stands for something new, and I’m sure a lot of folks won’t like it.
That’s got to be all right, that uncertainty and distaste for innovative approaches to a beloved thing. There are lots of salvation songs in this world—and even many others in the Petty catalog to which countless strangers have doubtless given their allegiance. But as I stood over those train tracks preparing to surrender to disease and despair in the psychedelic blindness of my simple human misery, the one song out of hundreds of available Heartbreakers tracks that came through my headphones at that one perfect moment was “Straight Into Darkness.” I’ve built my life around this epiphany, so it seems like a decent thing to build a book around too. At least you know that I mean what I say, that you can believe me because of the debt I owe to the song.
It has to be paid forward because it can’t be paid back—because just as I was finishing up writing these essays in autumn of 2017, Tom Petty died. The first thing I thought to myself was the same thing Jerry Garcia is rumored to have said when Pig Pen died: “That fucker. Now he knows.” At first, nobody was sure Petty had really died. There was another time the celebrity gossip press declared him deceased and it wasn’t true. This round, my newspaper students scooped me on it, for which I paused long enough to be proud of them before kind of mourning. It was confirmed that he was taken off life support but not that he actually died. I fell asleep on Atlanta time that night while Petty played Schrödinger’s cat in Los Angeles. Of even the most basic facts, with Petty you could never quite be certain. He really liked that about himself, I’ll bet. I wouldn’t exactly know because we never met, and now—at least in this lifetime—we won’t.
But Petty is possessed of some of that type of fan who has advanced beyond mere biographical litanies to a space of psychoanalysis and ultimately commiseration that borders on a lifetime parasocial partnership. I mean like prophets have. He seldom capitalized on that, even though he could’ve been an out-and-out preacher alongside Bruce Springsteen if he’d wanted. He just kept his head down, always working, to a point where, despite the uncertainties generated by his ornery personality, the steadfastness of his labor was mythic. A happy Sisyphus.
From an active band’s perspective, Petty basically picked a great time to go: one week after the wrap on his fortieth-anniversary tour, a victory lap if ever there was one; his ideas for the rerelease of Wildflowers on record, enough for that launch to go as he wished it when the dust settled; his revival of Mudcrutch including a surprise hit single; honored a few months prior as MusiCares’ Person of the Year for his decades of charitable work; loved well by his wife Dana for so long; at the mystical, round, rock ’n’ roll age of sixty-six.
Before his death was confirmed, it was reported that a hospital chaplain had been called to the room earlier that morning, as Petty was not expected to live through the day. I found the provision of this one detail so extraordinary. Petty was stone-cold guarded on issues as private as his religion, though he was vaguely known to favor meditation. Even the simple acknowledgment of a chaplain’s presence feels thick with implication. But don’t go getting all sad that the man died as you read through these essays. I sure was hoping Petty would get to read this book, and maybe his ghost can dig it, but his death changes no part of what I have to say about his life’s work. As Albert Camus said, “If this myth is tragic, that is because the hero is conscious. Sisyphus, proletarian of the gods, powerless and rebellious, knows the whole extent of his wretched condition: it is what he thinks of during his decent. The lucidity that was to constitute his torture at the same time crowns his victory. There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn.”
Somebody else can do the chronological summary. Somebody else can do the rundown of Petty’s legacy in the music industry. Whatever you came here looking for, I wish you luck finding it.
You’re welcome to skip around in this book. Each essay is a self-contained unit, but the essays are also sorted into six tools for approaching the song—personally, musically, historically, rhetorically, sociologically, and philosophically. The five chapters on the band’s fortieth- anniversary tour comprise my thoughts on the challenge of wanting to hear my song at a show. Spoiler alert: I never did. But I did learn to play it myself, which is covered in the section on song composition. You don’t need to know a lick of music theory to enjoy this book.
The three chapters on album context provide a condensed version of the Heartbreakers’ history as background to understanding the creation of Long After Dark and the place of “Straight Into Darkness.” The seven chapters on lyrical analysis go through each and every word of the song to get at its many meanings. There are three chapters on mob scene for a sociological and psychological examination of the band’s concerts, with a close look at the roles of violence and mysticism. Then the three chapters on standards evaluate philosophical implications of the song as they pertain to individualism, transcendentalism, and absurdism. There’s also some good stuff in that section for fans of Bob Dylan, and the occasional whiff of Bruce Springsteen. Overall, I’ve been neck-deep in the philosophy of Tom Petty for years now and my intention in writing this book is that it provide a way to preach the gospel he taught me.
Firstly, don’t believe the good times are over. Petty worked like a madman, enduring the cycle of making albums and then hitting the road to perform them for forty years. Whether it was an odd-numbered year or an even one, you could pretty much set a clock by his launch and tour schedule. He had a firm faith that the next record would be different from and better than the previous one, no matter how many people bought the album or whether it charted or where it got radio play or if it got love from the critics.
He hunted down the good times and gave the finger to whatsoever might get in the way, including the challenge of finishing high school in a timely manner, the necessity of holding a regular job in the early days before Gainesville anointed him, and his wife’s unexpected pregnancy just as he was preparing to head out to Los Angeles in search of a recording contract. Even catapulted into serious drug abuse by the end of his first marriage, he rolled into the studio just the same. And he was sought after as a fountain of youth for the good times rock ’n’ roll work could afford, a magnet for his elders—Del Shannon, Johnny Cash, Roger McGuinn, George Harrison, Bob Dylan. He worked his ass off as the front of Dylan’s backing band. Dylan, who couldn’t be bothered to comment for days when the Nobel Committee offered him its prize, responded immediately to the news of Petty’s last day, saying, “I thought the world of Tom. He was a great performer, full of the light.” The light.
Secondly, don’t believe the thrill is all gone. Petty fought like an underdog, speaking up in ways that frequently proved unpopular, even and perhaps especially when he was in the right. He fought for his publishing rights and won freedom from a garbage contract. He hid the master studio tapes even from himself so that no court could force him to fork over an album the record company didn’t deserve. He fought to keep the industry from inflating his album pricing and won, chilling price inflation for quite a while across the board. He made fun of Century City and all the lawyers in their glass castles ruining rock ’n’ roll through commodification.
He devoted an entire album to bitterly characterizing the failures of contemporary rock radio and its corporate machinations, and continued to be proud of the messaging in The Last DJ even though the album tanked. He sought absolute creative control from the moment he got in the van and drove to Los Angeles in search of a contract. Work was his good time, and he wouldn’t let anyone steal his thrills. Petty hated to be told what do, and if he once maybe stabbed a boardroom table with a switchblade, that was just his way of making it plain by his actions once it seemed that his words hadn’t been heard. He took no shit and could smell it coming a mile away.
Thirdly, real love is our salvation. Petty was a fiercely loyal man. He bailed out of a serious corporate contract offer to go with Shelter, a comparatively small potatoes operation, because he hit it off with Denny Cordell on the phone. He stuck with it long after Cordell began neglecting his eager protégé and spending more time in the office than in the studio. He may be the only rock star to have never gotten fed up with the antics of his pal Stevie Nicks. Petty said very little about the reasons for the end of his first marriage, and never spoke ill of Jane when it was over, even though everyone hints around that those twenty-two years of marriage dragged on for much longer than they should’ve.
The marriage to his band lasted four decades, with hardly a replacement among them. He kept two drummers for twenty years apiece—same with his bassists. During Howie Epstein’s ultimately fatal heroin addiction, Petty was so determined to keep the band together that Epstein’s tenure still ran across two decades. When some idiot set his house on fire, Petty rescued the Gibson Dove on which nearly all of his songs had been written. He spent thirty years onstage with a perfectly worn out set of Rickenbacker Rose Morris guitars.
And fourth, the strong will carry on. Petty laughed at that which would otherwise have made him rage. He channeled anger into ambition. His father served as a role model of what not to do in this life, letting the bottomless fear and hostility of his working-class feelings turn him into something weak and ineffectual, a joke. When the corporate machine demanded Petty promote his work with crass commercialism, he instead turned in some of the most innovative videography the music industry had ever seen. Hilariously, he ended up making MTV great in its early days.
No telling what all he and George Harrison might goof around about; they both had an instinct for rooting out ironies. When they formed a band together, Petty knew himself to be the littlest big shot in the Traveling Wilburys, so when they all picked silly names, he tacked Junior on the end of his just to look the fact in the eye. He gave voice to Lucky’s redneck punch lines on King of the Hill and knocked his own toe off on an episode of The Simpsons. And let’s not forget about all the black humor in his lyrics, many of which were improvised—“God’s Gift to Man,” “Yer So Bad,” “Gator on the Lawn,” “A Mind With A Heart Of Its Own,” “Spike,” and “Heartbreaker’s Beach Party,” just for starters.
So that’s it. Those are the four things Tom Petty taught me that saved my life, each lesson traced back to a line in the bridge verse of “Straight Into Darkness.” Done in any number of other ways, I could’ve ended up working on this book the whole rest of my life over thousands of pages. Hell, I suppose that’s what I’m doing anyway. But that’s between me and my rock and roller. There’s so much more, of course, but I lived it and I can write about it until the second coming of Tom Petty and you still won’t understand what the fuck I’m talking about until you pony up for the experience of it all for yourself—to live by his example, because rock ’n’ roll is a church and Tom Petty was one of my priests. He was a spiritual gangster and then he died. He went straight into darkness and I am still here, very much alive.